i've got a devil on my shoulder
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
28febbb.
Omgg. My nose is so killing me. So is my throat. My nose cant make up its mind whether to sneeze or not. Argh, so annoying. It makes me tear like all the time.
I used like 6723647862786874687694786r5786487614387561873465871346 tissues today man. And it was all piled up like a mountain. Haaa.
Yesterday, the anger and depression kept coming and going.
Yeah, today just heard some stuff im not sure i wanted to hear or not.
And its coming.
Im not sure if ill be able to make it. I mean, after that stupid thing that happened, it so toally brought me down.
Anyways, im like gonna reach school by 6.30am tomorrow which is pretty early. I shall stone and stone until its time for me to do what im suppose to do.
Okay, my sister is like helping me to do the angels. HAA.
T-H-X!
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
DO YOU BELIEVE IN KARMA?
I dont know if i really meant what i said just now.
But i really appreciated your help in past incidents. I thank you for other cases where you helped me actually.
But this just isnt the right time to come and help, you know what i mean?
I hope you do.
I hope you do.
I do hope you try and be more sensible, do the right thing and understand.
Heres a piece of advice, please find out what actually happened before jumping to conclusion. The situation will become really very fucked up. Different storys keep coming out.
If you were in my position, i would wanna know if you like being accused for something you had never done and dont remember knowing you have done sucha thing when people said you have. How can they know what you did when they are not you?
Cant be the split personailty right.
Its a really fucked up, shitty position to be in right now.
People will start losing trust in you, and your paying for such a high price for something you havent done. That, i have to admit, is really unfair. Maybe you dont know how it really feels because you have yet to experience it.
Do you believe in Karma?
YOU FORCED ME INTO THIS.
OMG, what the fuck is wrong with you? you and your fucking big mouth? will you just stop telling people about it? i know what i did and what i did not do. how can i not know what i did and you know what i did when its so clear? i think you have a fucking big problem. you are like giving me no choice but to hate you. i hate to do that, but your forcing me into this. i dont hate anybody so why the fuck should i do something like this? you dont fucking assume me okay. i know myself. your not me. you dont fucking know me at all.
i have already made this very fucking clear. if i did it, i know i will admit because i know its wrong. but the fucking problem is that its not fucking me. and why do you have to keep asking if its me and other shit. how many fucking million times do you want me to say its not me? is fuck no not enough? do you want me to say its me than your happy?
and how can i not know things i have not done and i dont know about it. its like so many people are giving different storys. i seriously dont understand what is wrong with you. your trying to protect YOUR EX by using other people's name? and oh please. i do not have any fucking guilty shit. because im just concern for my friend unlike you. i was just thinking how come she said such a thing and i didnt even know you did it. yeah yeah, you finally know who are you. DAMN YOUR FUCKING RIGHT! ITS YOU. you actually used somebody else's name to protect somebody not worth protecting. you even agreed to it. but i dont know why your still doing it.
******* is right. i should not be paying for something i have not done wrong. its not my fault at all. why should i pay for it? huh? you know your giving the wrong information to people thats why they are getting the wrong idea. you said those people were blind for seeing such a thing. yeah i toally agree. god gave them eyes so that they can see properly, not to misuse them and look at wrong things. im not that sure if you know whats right and whats wrong. how can it be so possible that they saw the wrong thing when i know exactly what i was doing at that point of time and the main person also knew what i did to. its so impossible to look at something so different and stupid and its not there?
for some/one of you, its not your business and why are you bugging in? its not wrong for me to call that person a kaypo when everybody else calls her/them to right? are you interested and likes the person your defending? omgggg!
Monday, February 26, 2007
EH?!
I CANT FREAKING TAG ON MY OWN BLOG! HAHA.
Shall go try again later.
pleasetellmethisisajoke.
Sunday, February 25, 2007
REUNION DINNER.
Yesterday, some really retarded shit happened.
Okay, my family was at the Jumbo restaurant at east coast. My mom made reservations already so she went to the counter and asked for the tables. As you know, its a weekend and its super crowded. Yeah, than theres this idiot guy who said 'queue up lah' or something to my mom.
My dad stared at him. And after awhile he disappeared. Haa, i think he was scared or something. My dad was telling me because i wasnt there.
He said if he say something to my mom again, he is gonna ask him ' wheres the fucking queue? Tell me. Wheres the fucking queue? Than i go queue.' Hahaha.
I was like telling him he should asked me to go there so i can stare and blink eye and tsk him.
Which later, he called me a troublemaker.
Than than than, after the dinner, my parents send my grandmother and my aunt home. And my mom needed to go into their house to get something. So my younger sister and i went to a nearby bakery and see if theres anything nice we can buy.
Than we saw this.
Look super colourful right and look super nice to eat right? Theres a cow, fish, chicken and other stuff. Haa, i cant believe the lady who sold this to us didnt say anything! Omgggg.
It looks super colourful and attractive so we decided to give it a try. And when we got back into the car, my mom asked me what we bought. I showed her the thing and she was like ' its for dead people you know.'.
And we almost wanted to eat it!
Omg can just die right?!
Yeah, anyways, yesterday had really painful headache which toally almost killed me.
Saturday, February 24, 2007
STIFLER!
Stifler is still as hot as ever. Haa. Watch that video. He look so damn hot. Okay, he always do.
Went for BBQ today in the afternoon.
Met a small angmoh girl, which is my dad's friend daughter's friend, whom model for Barbie stuff. Haa, she look super cute.
Okay, later going for reunion dinner at some seafood restaurant.
Friday, February 23, 2007
PHOTOTAKING!
PHOTOTAKING!
PHOTOTAKING!
Went to Istana on the third day of chinese new year to watch the concert band perform. Then saw the teacher whom i helped during the sec one orientation. When i saw him, he was like so familiar but i couldent recall who he was. Then in the end, yeyeng told me he was once from our school and he remembered me because i was the one who helped him for his class. He even remembered my name! Haa, and i dont even remember him.
Oh nooo. My mood swings are like really bad nowadays. Ooh i changed my blog skin! Haa. Ayee rrr. Tomorrow have ew tuition. Yuks. Im like so toally forced into it. Argh.
I realised its okay to eat alot during chinese new year. Its not like we get to eat so much of this everyday! At least i can take one year to burn everything completely! Haa.
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Guess what.
My dog attacked another dog today. HAHAHA. Although i wasnt there but my dad told me.
The golden was minding his own business and my dog just suddenly ran to him and bite him butt. Eh ?! Hahaha. But i think shes super cute!
Yeah, obviously the dog cried and ran away. Hahaha, and the owner was there!
My dog's very unfriendly.
This friendster user is one sick in the head ass. He viewed my profile and im like so freaking disgusted. EEEW. View if you dare. Dont regret. SICK AS IN REALLY F-ING SICK OKAY, LIKE SOME F-ING SEX MANIAC!
URGHHH.
Shall post my dream guy some other time! hahahahah!
First few days of CHINESE NEW YEAR is over. And yep, its that fast.
AND AND AND! OMGGG! I HAVENT SEEN SUCH MANY NICE GOODIES LYING AROUND AT HOME IN SUCHA LONGGG TIME! HAHA! When i got home, i jumped onto the sofa and took a container stuffed with food and started eating one container after another. Haa, i just couldent stop. Its like, i see that one, i close the one im currently eating and pick that another one that i want. Haaa. ITS THAT TEMPTING!
And guess what. I failed like SHIAT for my geog test man. Shiat as in really shit. I actually scored ZERO for my GEOG STANDARD TEST. WTFFFFFFFF! Yep, its the paper that i left my answers blank. I didnt come for so many geog lessons.
Tuition later! Ayeeeeeee! Okay, i hate my math tutor. I always dread going for his lessons, or rather i dread him coming to my place. Real shit. I ALWAYS ALWAYS get scolding. WITHOUT FAIL! Eeyerrrr.
Sunday, February 18, 2007
OH SNAP! One day is gone just like that! Mann! I hardly started on my homework!
Okay, time to talk about cny.
OMGGGG! THE GOODIES SEEM SO GOODDD! HAAAA!
Okay, ill grow fat right after chinese new year and takes like years to burn them all. I shall exercise in the morning before i go bath and get dressed. Haa, at least ill burn what i ate the day before! Haa.
Alright, i havent bath. I feel so stinky and shitty. Okay, everybody is sleeping and left me alone. So sad.
GOODNIGHT!
I cant stop worrying about my homeworkkk!
Saturday, February 17, 2007
The movie snakes on a plane is super thrilling! Niceeeee! Haaa.
OH YAYYYY! My fucking pain ucler have been killing me for the past few days man. Initially, it was like 2 small ulcers apart, slowly, it began to grow and join. Omgggg! Haa, can just die! Super painful. It was pratically one of the painesttttt ulcer in my lift. Now, its like better! I think my ulcers also wanna eat the goodies! HAAAA!
OMG TOMORROW IS CHINESE NEW YEAR!
And im not excited. I dont know why. Its like, i try to look something to look forward to. But when its nearer, it seems like its not that exciting anymore. Time will have to past. So if you think about how exciting it will/gonna be, in a split second, its already wednesday, and you think back when you were excited about sunday and monday and tuesday, you'll feel like all the excitment youve been waiting for is over and gone already. If you understand what i mean, time really flies. Well, the best thing to do is treasure what you have, as a teenager. Soon enough, you will already be in your 20s struggling with your job and making money. Tust me, you might regret, not studying properly back then, and landing up in a horrible job. Im sure nobody wants that to happen. Im trying to motivate myself to study as smart as possible but i doubt its working. I can still dont do my work and slack alot.
Why do i keep seeing people wherever i go. Haaa. Anyways, as i was on my way to town, i saw 2 SACians on the train. When we reached, we saw melissa chua. And on the train back home, we saw Crystal, Melissa Tsang and Ying Hua. Haa, and not forgetting yesterday. We saw Chelsea Low and Pauline, Alicia and her friends. Haa. I dont know why, but i keep seeing Melissa every Saturday. Haaa.
OH YAYYYY! My fucking pain ucler have been killing me for the past few days man. Initially, it was like 2 small ulcers apart, slowly, it began to grow and join. Omgggg! Haa, can just die! Super painful. It was pratically one of the painesttttt ulcer in my lift. Now, its like better! I think my ulcers also wanna eat the goodies! HAAAA!
OMG TOMORROW IS CHINESE NEW YEAR!
And im not excited. I dont know why. Its like, i try to look something to look forward to. But when its nearer, it seems like its not that exciting anymore. Time will have to past. So if you think about how exciting it will/gonna be, in a split second, its already wednesday, and you think back when you were excited about sunday and monday and tuesday, you'll feel like all the excitment youve been waiting for is over and gone already. If you understand what i mean, time really flies. Well, the best thing to do is treasure what you have, as a teenager. Soon enough, you will already be in your 20s struggling with your job and making money. Tust me, you might regret, not studying properly back then, and landing up in a horrible job. Im sure nobody wants that to happen. Im trying to motivate myself to study as smart as possible but i doubt its working. I can still dont do my work and slack alot.
Why do i keep seeing people wherever i go. Haaa. Anyways, as i was on my way to town, i saw 2 SACians on the train. When we reached, we saw melissa chua. And on the train back home, we saw Crystal, Melissa Tsang and Ying Hua. Haa, and not forgetting yesterday. We saw Chelsea Low and Pauline, Alicia and her friends. Haa. I dont know why, but i keep seeing Melissa every Saturday. Haaa.
Friday, February 16, 2007
OMG, I ACTUALLY PASS CHINESE STANDARD TEST!
HAAAA!
Im like freaking happy. Okay, look at this retarded picture. 
The overall mark for this question is 6. So both Marryann and i had full marks. But i wrote like almost full. And stewpid Marryann wrote only 2 lines. SO STEWPID RIGHT! My pen ink man! KIDDING!
The overall mark for this question is 6. So both Marryann and i had full marks. But i wrote like almost full. And stewpid Marryann wrote only 2 lines. SO STEWPID RIGHT! My pen ink man! KIDDING!Went to HARD ROCK today for lunch. okay, a pretty late lunch. Haha. Omg, super many angmohs inside. Haha. And the food super expensive. THANK YOU JACINTA FOR TREATING USSSS! THANKSSS! Haaa, thanks Jacinta, your sucha nice friend!
After eating, we went out and it was pouring hard rocks and stones. Haaa. Okay than we ran in the rain. It was rather embarrassing. Stepped in a huge gigantic super duper big puddle. Theres like no other way you can go. And all our shoes were wet. YUK. Went into Zara drenched.
Than walked all over town, here and there with our heavy bag. Our shoulders were aching like crazyyy! At about 9 plus, Michelle went home with her cousin whose working at Kinokuniya and Michelle was tolly embarrassed, super mean! Than Jacinta, Melissa and i took train home. Jacinta's parents gave me a lift back, and she was like super embarrassed?! Haaa. Okay, thanks again anyways!
Urgh! Mood swings sucks.
Thursday, February 15, 2007
HAPPY TOTAL DEFENCE DAY EVERYBODY.
Haa. I thought i could run alot being the messanger but all i did was to run to the GO from the Library. So its not very tiring. Haa, but while everybody was in the sun, i was enjoying the aircorn in the Library.
Oh yea! I had sweets and chocolates on my table yesterday and i didnt eat anything during any lesson or in between lesson! Haa, can you believe it? Almost everybody around me was chewing and eating.
When i came home, i thought about burning the fats i gained like, the past few weeks. So i thought about running. And finally i ran like 8 rounds just now. Now my muscle so painful! Haa, the rounds i ran was slightly smaller than the fields in school, just abit difference.
Oh shittttttt. Chinese letter writing!
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
HAPPY VALENTINES DAYYY!
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY EVERYBODAY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACINTA!
THANK YOU EVERYBODY FOR YOUR PRESENTSSSS!(:
Okay, i will have to visit the dentist soon man and all my teeth will start dropping. Haa. ALL THANKS TO ALL THE SWEETS AND LOLLIPOPS AND CHOCOLATES AND PHOTOGRAPHS AND OTHER THING PEOPLE HAD GIVEN ME! I REALLY APPRECIATED IT!(:
Yea, today geog standard test sucked. There was a question about Mangrove forest or something and i wasnt there because i went for tournament and i didnt have the worksheet to study too. Actually there was 2 questions on it.
1 of them worth 4 marks and the other worth 3 marks. I left it blank. YEA BLANK. Okay not really, i wrote something in pencil. I wrote ' i didnt learn about mangrove forest!'. But i doubt Aileen Tan will understand because i was suppose to get it from other students.
Okay, im so gonna fail that stewpid test.
The day after tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow is chinese new year, and the day after tomorrow tomorrow is chinese new year eve. And guess what.
I havent bought all my chinese new year clothes yet. First time in my life im not ready for Chinese new year. Haaa.
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Sunday
Went out with Alyssa, Cheryl, Melissa & Yolanda to Marina than town. We went to Marina just to visit somebody! Haa! My beloved darling peiwennnn! I snapped a picture of her stocking the chips. Haa. Than went home to study.
Monday.
After school, i went to eastpoint to look for Valentine's day gift in eastpoint. Then went home for my mom's company dinner thing at Hyatt. Omg i ate alot of thingssss! Im like growing so fat and theres no tennis like these days anymore. And and and! Chinese new year is coming! OMGGG! I better run and burn some fats like, SOON!
Tuesday.
Lessons were boringggg. I had to control myself. And Cheryl toh! Can ask me to keep a lookout for teacher for her. Went to develop pictures adter school. I wanted to develop like, $100 plus worth of pictures, but in the end i cut down to $30. At first i saw the 100 bucks, i was like siaooooo, so much. Haa, but 30 is pretty reasonable for about more than 100 pictures. Tuition just now was okay, but abit of scolding. ANYWAYSSS! MY NEXT TUITION IS GONNA BE AFTER CNYYY! HAAA!
Oh and, because my dog went up to visit him. So he asked me ' what does your dog hates most', i wanted to say 'you'. Haa, but im not so mean. Haaa! While he was scolding me, i was like touching my lips, my stupid ulcer is killing the shit out of me. Its like, 2 ulcer just next to each other! Omg, super duper pain man. *%$*&#$!
TOMORROW IS VALENTINES DAY EVERYBODAYYYY! OKAY, AND NOT FORGETING JACINTA'S BIG BIG DAYYYY! HAAA!
Saturday, February 10, 2007
Today's weather was really nice.
OMG HIS BOXERS! HAAA!I really really pity chinese teacher. I mean, whenever she teach in class, everybody will be talking, including me. The worst thing, is that we even take pictures in her lesson. Its like pretty obvious we are taking picture. 5 of us smile and look at the same direction, its so obvious! Cheryl suddenly did center parting, than marryann remembered about the 7'clock show, that the hairstyle look like the situ bi's dad. I was like 'yea yeaaa!'. I laughed and stood up from my seat and arrange my hair accordingly. Than Xie teacher was like super angry. She stared at us for awhile and said *** ***(my cheena name) and marryann's cheena name, i forgot.
She asked us to get out. Michelle said i laughed super loudly thats why she made us get out of the class. I dont think i laughed that loud. Anyways, than dont know dont know what happened, Angela talked back to teacher. Haa, i didnt really know what exactly happened because i was standing outside of the classroom. Tsk.
Today we went to Queensway, Wisma, Pacific Plaza, Bugis, Bugis Street, Suntec and Marina. Haa, from 1 plus all the way to 9. We covered so many places. Anyways, saw ang moh's guys! HAA!
Than we saw Sherrie and her ahem ahem. And Melissa and her friend. Saw many SACians today man. Haa, Yinghua too!
Friday, February 09, 2007
OMG many many hot guys today! HAAA! WHOOO! HOT ANG MOH GUYS!
I waved at a guy from the bus, he stared and raised his eyebrows! Haa, i felt soo.. lame! Today photo taking sucked too. Haa, we didnt have time to even step into the canteen to buy food. Immediately after phototaking we gotta go to the bus. UNITED WORLD COLLAGE IS A COOL SCHOOL! HAAA!
Aye, tomorrow morning have math tuition. How how howww. I dont want. Im thinking if i should continue to quit. But i cant quit halfway. I dont likee! &%*%(*%!
Thursday, February 08, 2007
EW, GOTTA WEAR TOURNAMENT UNIFORM TOMORROW FOR PHOTOTAKING.
Haa, although im the one who suggest to wear it. But i think for this year's photo taking, we should wear this year's tournament uniform and not last year's one.
Uh, tomorrow the sec 3s are also following the sec 2s for their first ever friendly match. Haa. Michelle says there will be hot guys there. My camera is on standby!
Oh, the math tuition on tuesday was like shiatt. My math tutor sorta scolded me afew times. There was like so many million times i felt like talking back to him. As in talk back. BUT I HELD THE TEMPTATION BACK. Later he keep picking on me although theres no one to pick but me because its a one to one tuition. YEA. HATE IT. Im gonna have to suffer this again like on saturday? &%$#@*&%^%! DAMN. OKAY, I WILL NOT NOT NOTTTTT ANSWER BACK. Actually i sorta answer back afew times, whispering. And sometimes i said it out loud. HAAA.
Okay, that was shiat. Im growing fat. Ive been eating eating and eating non stop for the past few days. Today while walking back to school, i had a packet of crackers in my hand. Cheryl and i split the packet. I was like super full and im still eating it. I dont know why. Its like automatic. HAA. I think ill be 200kg if i didnt take up Tennis. Ill probably be in the library sitting in front of the computer and eating chips. RAHH. I have to stop. HAA!
Okay, today during RE was pretty shit too. Ms Raju asked us to write about the 3 decisions thing. And Cheryl was telling me about what happened yesterday because i didnt come. I was listening. Than Ms Raju suddenly said my name and asked if im in PE council. And i was like yeah. She said, if i continue to behave like this, i dont deserve to be in the council. WTHHHHH. Im listening to people and and andddd. Okay nevermind. I just dont understand. Maybe because of the previos incident too.
I came home early today just to sleep. I set my alarm at 7 but woke up at 8 instead. How nice. I dont even remember pressing 'turn off' in my phone. I had a weird dream. But it was really nice to catch up on my sleep. Haa.
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Today is our last and final tournament of this year. And we sort of lost again. This time, i played singles and.. yeah, i lost. Haa, like duh. I cant play singles for nuts!
BIO TEST TOMORROW! And im so super tired. Im having headaches too. I cant afford to fail anymore subjects. Damn it. Today's chinese standard test was super shitty. Haa, i dont really understand the stewpid passage. Rahh!
Yeps, oh and we took many many pictures. I wont be missing anymore lessons anymore. I hope i can catch up with my work.
MY HEADACHE IS KILLING MEEEE!
Sunday, February 04, 2007
Went to milenia walk in the evening and visited Candy Empire. Than i remembered Peiwen told me she was working there. I messaged and asked her if she was working today. Haa, she wasnt. While walking back, i passed the shop SINS or something like that. I heard somebody calling me. I turned and look, i saw Kimberly sim. Haaa. She was working alone! What a lonerrr! Haaa, sorry. Im gonna be like her next time man. Before that while i was coming downthe escalator, i was peeping into the shop and looking at this women arranging the chocolates! HAAA! I told her i saw somebody making the chocolates and it was her! Haa! Okay, not really funny. But i realise alot of people work at milenia walk! Haa!
I think working at Candy Empire is really cool! HAA! Can get free stuff like almost all the time. YES LIKE PEIWEN CHIA!
Right, i wanna sleep early tonight. I always say stuff, but i dont do stuff.
Haa okay anyways BUAII BUAII! HAA!
Saturday, February 03, 2007
Im so bored.
But ill try attempting my work. Haa, hopefully i can finish it.
Today's tuition was okay.
I think i should really concentrate and stop thinking of things thats not gonna happen. Its so distracting. Haa, i cant focus!
Went to yishun at about 7 plus to see doctor for some stuff with my parents. I like to see doctors! Haa! I dont know why. I was really hungry just now. But when then food was right in front of me, i didnt feel like eating. I didnt really eat anything from last night until now. & im still feeling hungry. Haa, but i lazy go get food. Yeah, ill just stay hungry.
Friday, February 02, 2007
i dont wanna grow old!
Aye, im begining to think about my future, my life. Like what im gonna do and work as when i grow up. I think teenage years are the best. Its like, once your in your twenties and thirthies, you have to work and work and work. If i wanna enjoy, i have to get a good job with a good pay. But for that to happen, i have to study very hard. Haa, yea, after all, its all about education. Its the most important thing of your life, than from there, we can start. So if i dont study hard, i wont be able to support myself. But studying is so tiring.
Im really tired too now. I feel like/wanna sleep now. rahhhhhhh.
Nites. I have to go to the doctor tomorrow morning, early early in the morning and have tuition after that. Im so gonna get scolding from my tuition teacher mann.
ARGH IM SO TIRED LAH. I was closing my eyes and sleeping for awhile just now. Haa, until my sister gave me a shock. Shit, i still gotta do tuition homeworkkkk.
Thursday, February 01, 2007
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